Friday, July 9, 2010

no accident

today has been hard. really hard. I slept very little last night and my attempt to take a nap this afternoon failed. i cannot seem to stop crying today. gavin had another eye exam yesterday. he has stage 2 ROP (retinopathy of prematurity). since he was so premature, his eyes hadn't yet fully vascularized. the ROP means that his blood vessels have some abnormal growth. the stages go from 0-5. stage 4 and 5 are basically retinal detachment (blindness). the doctor that he sees for his eyes treats ROP at stage 3 before it even gets to those levels. if his ROP gets to a high level 3, the doctor would have him transferred to either phoenix children's hospital or st. joe's for laser surgery where they would cauterize the blood vessels where they are abnormal/tangled in hopes that they would grow straighter. so, we are on our knees praying for yet another miracle. sometimes, stages 1, 2 and even 3 can correct themselves. we pray earnestly for that.

i came home from the hospital this afternoon in hopes of getting some rest. but like i said, my attempt failed. as i was sitting on the couch crying, i saw our Bible that jeramy had left open this morning. it was opened to the book of luke. i kinda found that odd at first since i typically associate the book of luke with Christ's crucifixion and resurrection. but as i flipped through the pages, i saw miracle after miracle after miracle. i read the words aloud in the quiet of our home. "the blind receive sight, the lame walk...the deaf hear, the dead are raised". i read numerous chapters aloud in the book of luke today and it reminded me that the God we serve still performs miracles. we have watched Him perform miracles already. so, we ask for another. we ask on bended knee for gavin's eyes to heal, without surgery. please join us in that prayer. his next eye exam is next thursday, july 15th. let's all join together and pray that God performs a miracle on our little boy's eyes. it is not out of His control...i trust that.

i am weary today...weary to the point where i can't even sleep. as i was reading through luke, i came across chapter 7, where Jesus raises a widow's son from the dead. it said "as He approached the town gate, a boy was being carried out - the only son of his mother. And a large crowd from town was with her. when the Lord saw her, His heart went out to her and He said, "don't cry." i believe with all my heart that this was no accident. it was the message i needed to hear today.

i serve a compassionate God. He hasn't failed me yet...


  1. I stand in pray with you tonight and lift of the very life of Gavin. Every little part of his body and pray that God's gentle touch does a mighty work in Gavin's body...
    Love & Hugs~
    Nicole A.

    Hope this is encouraging to you...
    This was from Charles Stanley on "Our Anchor in Times of Storm" the link to the whole article is at the end if you want~ You demonstrated such wisdom by going right to God's word your time of sorrow Tracee you are teaching so many...God is using you not only to be an incredible wife and mom but warrior for his kingdom...Love you!

    How does the Bible anchor us in times of storm?

    It comforts us. In the midst of heartache and struggle, try reading the Psalms. David, who authored much of the book, encountered storm after storm in his life. Many psalms record how he found comfort in God. (See Psalm 57:1-3).
    It reminds us of God’s promises. Scripture assures us of the Lord’s presence, power, and provision in our lives. That’s why I begin each day by reading from His Word. No matter what storms you face, the Bible has a promise that will speak to you. For instance, Jesus said, “Come unto me, all you who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28). And God promised Joshua success in all he did if he would meditate on His Word (Joshua 1:8-9).
    It is a compass for our lives. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.”
    It teaches us how the Father works. Growing up, I learned the ways of God by studying the stories of the Old Testament—primarily the lives of Abraham, Moses, Joshua, David, and Daniel. Reading about the saints teaches us how to make wise decisions, while the stories of Israel’s rebellion help us avoid the same mistakes (1 Corinthians 10:1-13).
    It gives us God’s viewpoint. Nothing that happens to you is an accident. By studying how the Lord used adversity in the lives of biblical characters, you can better understand how He may want to use the struggle you are currently going through.

  2. And He will never fail you. Praying constantly for Gavin. Love you so much!

  3. Tracee,
    I love that your bible was open to that specific place in Luke and that you continued to read. The Lord was waiting for you right there...

    Praying for you,

  4. loving you and praying...OUR GOD IS good...

  5. We are in great prayer for Gavin's eyes to heal through God's continuous miracles

  6. Dennis and are over in San Diego and reading and praying for you all this morning. We KNOW God performs miracles - I want you to think of Eric :) and what we talked about! We will continue to pray all the time (as usual!) Emily is right, He will NEVER fail you! and remember..... For this you have Jesus!
    We love you!
    Jamie & Dennis