but in addition to those things, there are things i am experiencing that are really tough to put into words. i feel like the luckiest woman in the world. i got to marry my best friend, we were able to get pregnant quickly, and now i get to do the one thing GOD has called me to do...be a mom. something has happened with my outlook on life since becoming pregnant. there is not a day that goes by when i do not think about our child. there is not a day that goes by that i do not think about what kind of mom i want to be. i want to be courageous, soft spoken, loving, patient, kind, firm, encouraging, invested, a role model, tender, compassionate, a listener, and most importantly, a GODLY mom. i think about what our baby's personality is going to be. will they be shy, outgoing, a risk taker? will they look more like jeramy or me? will they have blue eyes or will they have brown eyes?
among these things, i also think about the blessing that it is to have a baby. i don't take the responsibility lightly at all. i want to raise our baby in the LORD and be able to trust that He holds them in His hand.
there are so many things i wonder about. there are so many questions i have. but there are a few things i know for sure. i know that jeramy will be a wonderful dad. i know that i will love that baby more than i could possibly even try to imagine now. i know that our baby will hear about Jesus and see Christ in jeramy's and my relationship. i know that the other things will come together in due time.