Friday, December 4, 2009

our little blessing happened. we are having a baby! words cannot even begin to express what it feels like to have a life growing inside me. there are so many changes beginning to take place. it's actually crazy how fast your body adapts to life inside of you! if you were to ask my husband, he would tell you these things: she's very tired, can never choose what she wants to eat because "nothing sounds good", she's nauseas, she cries over everything and she thinks she's getting fat. now, i am not going to disagree with any of those things as they are most definitely true! ha ha!

but in addition to those things, there are things i am experiencing that are really tough to put into words. i feel like the luckiest woman in the world. i got to marry my best friend, we were able to get pregnant quickly, and now i get to do the one thing GOD has called me to a mom. something has happened with my outlook on life since becoming pregnant. there is not a day that goes by when i do not think about our child. there is not a day that goes by that i do not think about what kind of mom i want to be. i want to be courageous, soft spoken, loving, patient, kind, firm, encouraging, invested, a role model, tender, compassionate, a listener, and most importantly, a GODLY mom. i think about what our baby's personality is going to be. will they be shy, outgoing, a risk taker? will they look more like jeramy or me? will they have blue eyes or will they have brown eyes?

among these things, i also think about the blessing that it is to have a baby. i don't take the responsibility lightly at all. i want to raise our baby in the LORD and be able to trust that He holds them in His hand.

there are so many things i wonder about. there are so many questions i have. but there are a few things i know for sure. i know that jeramy will be a wonderful dad. i know that i will love that baby more than i could possibly even try to imagine now. i know that our baby will hear about Jesus and see Christ in jeramy's and my relationship. i know that the other things will come together in due time.