Tuesday, October 13, 2009

what is truth?

jeramy and i started a new sunday school class about 6 weeks ago called "the truth project". it has been so awesome to learn more concrete things behind what we believe as Christians. i am amazed, however, with how many people in our study have such a wrong view of GOD. it is so strange to me that there is a misconception (even in the church) about who GOD really is. last sunday, we were listening to the speaker talk about evolution and facts that biblically contradict it. yet, there was a man who raised his hand and talked about how since GOD can do what He wants, he could made it "evolution". the response he was given rocked my socks off..."God will not do anything that is against HIS nature and He will not do anything that contradicts the Scriptures. pretty obvious right? well, i thought so. still, so many people still don't get it...and i am talking about Christians. if these are the misconceptions of people IN the church, what is it like for people who aren't even attending church. how much more far off are their perceptions?? scary.

Monday, October 5, 2009

i will praise YOU in this storm

sometimes it is really hard to see God's plan and timing in everything. right now is one of those times. i don't know why i get stressed out about small things when i know that God has never let go of me; however, i still do. i have been heartbroken watching my hsuband deal with so much stress lately, almost daily. the hardest thing, as a wife, is to see your husband going through something and not know how to fix it. i tried...really hard to fix it by myself. but at this point, i know that my job as his wife is to pray pray pray. it is such a weird feeling when things are completely out of your control, yet in some weird way, it is comforting. why is that?? maybe it is because it's a relief to know that i don't need to stress myself out with it. God tells us to cast all our cares on Him. He wants to do this for me. so why do i still feel helpless?? i guess this is a good time to mention that patience is not a gift of mine. i wish that it was. in my heart, i really do trust in God's plan but i can't seem to get myself to wait. we are told to wait on the Lord...wait on His timing. why can't i do it?! i guess i need to pray for myself too. i need to pray that God shows me how to pray for my husband and how to completely give him over to the Lord.

God, i do trust in You. but it is so hard for me!! i ask for your forgiveness in this area of my life...for trying to do it by myself and keeping you out of the equation. please forgive me. i will wait on You.